well today i felt lost n the day passby real slow..
firstly elly hajar n myself were suppose to go to sch by mrt.. but elly woke up late and took a cab down to bedok..but wanted to take mrt frm there also.. but i decided might as well i take the cab to outlet..to return back the toilet key which i accidentally took home yesterday... upon reachin there.. i saw maám stack out the chair.. my heart skip a beat.. but pluck up my courage and went on with it..
she was kinda shock to see me i guess.. she took the key and continued wit unstackin the chair.. i tried talking to her.. every turn she went every where she go.. i tried to break tt silence of hers.. apologised..again n again.. but to think again.. i really deserve this from her..ok back.. finally after she put the tables she started to talk a lil... about my promises.. previous last chances.. n wat happens next.. dun really want to go in greater details.. talked to her..persuaded..apologisin.. and explainin.. everything didnt seem to work...i went on to school with tt heavy heart..
couldnt really concentrate back in the cab till the lecture.. i was still struggling to sms her.. but she smsed me instead..i replied.. n she replied..i did again..and it went on.. till erp lesson i think.. where her smses kept comin.. it went on also.. till 12noon break.. stared into thin air with the ipod stuck in ma ear...one aft another.. i threw my phone down the stairs of the overhead bridge.. her words was lyke a stake piercin my heart!! elly also got shocked.. hee..continue sittin down waiting fer the next class...then i received an sms again..but i had nothin to reply....
on the way back again i receive the sms.. she wanted to end the conversation which literally she started.. and wished tt it never happen... saying tt she'll only talk to me at work only.. sad huh.. but i dun want to be clappin wit one hand again.. its lyke im being treated lyke a rejected item.. last sms of the day saying tt its good enuf tt shes talkin to me at werk..n shes extremely disappotinted wit me n theres no word tt can explain how extreme tt is.. n i should be thankin my lucky stars tt she still wants to talk to me at werk...
how bout thankin god? or should i say seek help frm the one above?
Dear god,
please help me change to be a better person cause i really want to keep my promise tt i have made wit maám. and can u also help me thank maám and give blessings fer wat she have done before watever juz happen recently.. oh yeah can u also help her cool down with wat juz happen 2 or 3 days ago.. i seriously am dumb n a cock for doing such things..[juz came back] went to the outlet to test the coffee fer barista olympic.. hee.. ok and also dun make her ignore me cause i really do fear rejection.. esp frm her.. i noe wat ever i did took a lot of courage and also made her blood boil early in the mornin im sorry for that also...
futhermore can u also help me? help me and maám get back like last time please that all i have to say ryte now.. please make her cool down.. i really do regret wat i have done but at the same time.. my frens??..i m caught in the middle here.. i hope i did not make anone feel bad due to my dumb ness..
thank u
has has.. u noe how maam is lyke yet u still do.. at this moment u r the dumbest arse to blew tt very last chance u were given weeks back.. now.. all u got to do is juz pray hard tt everything will be back to normal.. frm scoldin..to adik..to dia..to fishin...
HAS
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