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Tuesday, August 09, 2005

i really am sorry fer the things n mess tt i've created and have made u angry n disappointed at me.. these past three days have made me realise just how much u cared for me before..and i find that we're not the us we used to be..tt day while on the phone, i didnt realise tt i called u my fren again instead of my kakak..but tt was by accident..when i realise.. i quickly change frm fren to kakak cause i remmbered abt it..but i would like to make this clear to u.. i used to had diff calling or even saying the word 'kakak' to others.. lyke im shy fer a second at ma self..

how ever when i got to noe tt u dun care any more n some how gave up on me..i crashed.. are u still angry? im extremely scared at the moment honestly..i dun really noe why but i am..told ma self today tt i had to hug u n lola, not knowin qhy. but didnt have enough courage to..

its kinda awkward the way we stand ryte now.. i still miss u eventhough we still meet n talk n crap wit ya.. haha lyke we did yest in the toilet?? hee sshhhh.. tts between us arh! whee~

kakak..i noe how badly u want me to change..please believe tt im tryin..its juz so hard to.. i noe i disappointed u countless times im sorry for tt..im sorry for being sumone else, sorry for not believing in u, sorry tt i cant change wart already past, and im sorry for tt too..

i hope u forgive me..i miss u i juz do... i cant accept the fact tt u're so far away when u're juz next to me..

dear lord, i've been put through so many tests tt u have set fer me.. im haven't pass a single one yet.. maybe once tt was with my dear. but since then tt was when i realise life has lost its meanin love seems to be hate and hate seems to be vengence. i got caught up into so many things juz cause i lost her it ain't a great feeling..i didnt noe abt my moves.. it seems every turn i made i got came to a never ending round-a-bout.. i dun want to go through it again with kakak.. kakak seems much more.. one may juz say tt my life revolves around her.. shes the only kakak whom is much more diff then anyone else.. please.. juz dun make me go through wat i had to before.. i heart my kakak.. reall i do... but i juz ain't got enuf courage to tell her tt.. i hope we get back to normal cause sumthing is juz not ryte..its a bad feelin tt i hate the most!! argh dear lord, i shall not whine nor reap the past abt wart u made me go through but im askin fer one last time.. to make my kakak and me last.. i never want to see wart i had to before.. and if it does.. its kakak.. i guess it'd be worst... or maybe u could juz show me the ryte path.. and i'll make sure tt it doesnt happen.. i hope u understand juz how much i heart my kakak.. thank you for hearin me out..

amin

kakak, i heart yous..

adik.



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