ok..i swear i save my post tt i typed this mornin.. but it aint here.. hmm sharks.. well startin of wit sat.. i got a major conversation wit lola juz as i entered the outlet..
starting wit wat happen on wed.. well i admit i was stupid to have somehow forgotten abt the promise i made n wat lola told me in my face was soo farkin true.. abt y did i do all these things when all a while i noe it was wrong..n she said its as though i do all purposely.. dear lord.. hell no.. i wouldnt..then abt my sleepin prob.. it really made perfect sense..abt me depending much on u guys.. hmm i really am speechless.. thanks fer tellin me juz how do i behave n have such a childish character.. i sat n gave a tot abt it.. thanks lola.. i get wart u mean.. n i feel very guilty at the moment.. n of course stupid....
got forced to go to maáms place later tt afternoon.. die die wanted to go home.. i didnt speak a word of hi also.. it couldnt get out.. but while i was playin wit the train set.. she suddenly talk to me.. ok i admit i got shock..then lola had to leave.. i told her to hold up cause i was 'busy'doing the train thingy... she told me to stay n play wit b.. after she said tt i definately had to stay if not wart would maám think..ryte..besides..i have to face her sooner or later..so might as well
mak n nenek n the whole clan came.. i rang up ma house asking whether i could stay over.. got a yes.. went fishin.. n slept ASA we got home..got up early today to go to arab sch.. arghh!! then went back paris fer lunch had packet rice whee!!
hold up.. fer one second i tot i was crazy.. ok.. haha
well i guess i wrap it here then i think this second time tt it has happen has waken up my whole system.. i noe i wont repeat any silly mistakes n do any future crap..
im sorry for not realising juz how much u wanted me to change untill lola told me the story.. i noe theres more to it but wart she said is juz enough for me to realise i have u... n im sorry to ever hurt n disappoint u n lola.. if it wasnt for yesterday,sat, i would not noe wart will happen later on..
i noe things will definately chg.. i'll adapt
me myself and i
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